i have been staring at this screen for the past 20 minutes trying to summarize my feelings.

 

The problem with hope is that it never dies.

 

These past week or so has been eventful and very enjoyable thanks to amazing set of people with whom I am lucky to be friends with.

 

But it has been a struggle inside. Changes at work means i have to take a hard look at where all this is going.

Some grand plans and dream castles built around them are gonna come down as they have hit a glitch. A fatal one essentially.

If there was no hope, i wouldnt have dreamt any of this. Thanks to the eternal hope that im having a rude reality check.

 

Frankly, I dont have any right to complain about the life I have currently. Provided I dont have to entertain too many hopes. Hopes that can spur you to do anything but the same hopes can lay you waste in the sand. The latter is what is going on with me precisely.

 

The answer is simple > be realistic. dont have false hopes bla bla..

 

Easier said than done.

I wish I could.

 

I am sure I will be ok in sometime. or whatever.. but every fall is not the same. it seems like its tougher to get up after each fall.

 

I dont normally miss a guitar class. Today I not only skipped it but i returned back to my desk after walking halfway down the hallway to go to the class. *_*

 

I give up on writing any further..